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If you feel guilty, restless or even anxious the moment you stop, you're not bad at resting. For some people, slowing down genuinely feels threatening, and researchers have a name for one version of it: relaxation-induced anxiety. The way back is to let rest in slowly, in small doses your body can trust.
When relaxing makes you more anxious
Researchers have known since the 1980s that some people become more anxious, not less, during relaxation exercises. In 2019, psychologists Hanjoo Kim and Michelle Newman at Penn State tested one explanation in the Journal of Affective Disorders.
They found that people who were more sensitive to sudden shifts in negative emotion, like dropping from calm into fear, were more likely to feel anxious during relaxation. The idea is that staying a little tense keeps you braced, so a bad moment can't catch you off guard. Newman's advice was that "it's actually healthier to let yourself experience those shifts."
Their study looked at people with generalised anxiety and depression, so it won't describe everyone. But many dependable, always-on people will recognise the logic: if I relax, something will go wrong.
When busy feels safer than still
Pete Walker, a psychotherapist who writes about complex trauma, describes a "flight" pattern: people who stay constantly busy and productive, partly to stay ahead of feelings they'd rather not meet. He writes that recovery includes learning to live at a variety of speeds, including neutral.
If you were the child who held things together, rest may never have been safe or allowed. Your body learned that being useful kept things okay. That learning was wise at the time. It just may not fit your life now.
Rest is not earned
In this house, rest isn't a reward for finishing your list. The list doesn't finish. Rest is something your body needs, the way it needs food and water.
Try it now: rest in small doses (90 seconds)
Lie down or lean back somewhere comfortable. Keep your eyes open.
Look around and notice that, right now, nothing needs you.
Let your body be heavy for three slow breaths.
If restlessness or guilt rises, don't push it away. Name it: "There's the guilt."
Get up after 90 seconds, before it feels like too much. Tomorrow, try two minutes.
Small, safe doses teach your body that stopping doesn't lead to danger.
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Questions people ask
Why do I feel guilty when I rest? Often because your body links being busy or helpful with being safe or loved. Stopping can feel like breaking a rule, even if no one else is watching.
What is relaxation-induced anxiety? When relaxation exercises make someone more anxious instead of calmer. Researchers have documented it since the 1980s.
How do I learn to relax if relaxing makes me anxious? Start very small and keep your eyes open, so your body stays oriented to the room. If anxiety is severe or constant, a therapist can help.
Is it laziness? No. Struggling to rest is usually a sign of a nervous system that has worked hard to keep you safe.
Come in
The Guestroom has a five-minute evening ritual for exactly this.
Written by Prishaniee, founder of the hOuse Of nO. Somatic guide, yoga teacher and Ayurveda practitioner.
